A Broken Rainbow

I spend my day in KMDC today, trying to deal with a screwed up document for me to print the labels. The blardi Minolta machine is enough to drive my blood up to my brain. I never worked well with administrative stuff anyway which explains why I'm not a human resource executive or an admin executive, Tzu-Sinn will know why. lol. And the lady from EDS offered me a job as a PA to a big boss, joke ain't it? double lol.

Had a bad day today. Explains why Kelly asked why I'm extra quiet today. I felt like .. I don't know how to even put it into words.. juz like the title, like a broken rainbow. Something that is so beautiful and the next thing u know, it's broken. It's not even a crack, it's broken. Something so colorful combining all 7 colors juz breaks apart. It did, it did took a huge part of me today. A mind that couldn't sit still today and not not wonder and think more. Yes, I'm hurt, enough to make me cry. And yes, I'm jealous enough to even not stop thinking bout it. If those are the intentions, I believe you've passed with flying colors. If that's what makes you satisfied, be satisfied coz you did it.

Is it me or wat? I don't know. Where is the mistake? I wanna know. What was the point that cracked n broke the rainbow? Have I not given enough? Have I not cared enough? Or did I cared too much? I admit, I'm quite of a not-so-positive person, thus, assuming lots and you know it. I need to be informed and told that I'm assuming the wrong thing, but you never did. I am weak, very weak. I do assumptions and I make lots of wrong decisions alot bcoz I am not strong enough to even think positively in things.

Dislike me, hate me, regret knowing me but I'll never.