Monday, May 25, 2009

And Here I go again...

It is 1pm on a Monday afternoon and I'm stuck at home. Good or bad? For some, it's great bcoz i don't have to go to office! But to some, it isn't that great afterall. That's just pure unproductive and crapped up life. Me? I feel the latter.

I want changes but at the same time I am discouraged in so many ways to do so. My past 2 years have been rather rough and pretty much unstable. I did not see this coming back in June 2007. But, I've got no regrets. Things I've learned, thing's i've gone through, people that i've known, love that was being shared and the experience that I've gotten are priceless.

Just that today, I'm counting on the ticking of the clock on my directions in the next one year. What would I be doing? Where would I be? Everyday I wake up and wonder what's next.

People come and people go. Leaving us senior folks. Well, to some up there, as they say, if u can't take it, LEAVE. How ignorant. And I started to understand why are they at the top. SELFISHNESS. friendship was never a word for them. And I guess, never will be. Explains the loneliness.

I've secured another platform today, a platform similar to the one I've stepped on in June 2007. Let's all hope I'd be able to sustain and shine.

In my years of living, I've made lotsa friends with some which I consider lifelong. And, I love you guys :) like how she does it, <3 <3 <3

I am glad to see that everyone's doing well. My friends and my family. Of course not for Andrina. My sis's gonna step into a new phase of life soon. Her tertiary. :)

The only thing I'd wish to see again in this life, is a dad that I used to have when i was a child.

Let's all see where I will be end of this year. Let's all see how long will be at where I am at the end of this year. Life's a gamble. So, take some risk.

:)

4 comments:

Benny said...

ahla...feels like blogging again :(

m said...

<3 <3 <3

*hugs*

ur doing excellent as u are now :))

Anonymous said...

alaaa... apasal emo? let go the grudges u hold against Andrina and u'll be happier :)
as for your dad, you will do everything u can to make things change and if things stay the same, at least you can look back and say "I've tried". *hug my badak sister kuat-kuat*

** stella ** said...

lol. i'll try on andrina. susah :)

damn long nv see u siak.

when wanna jumpa?