New Year's Eve!!!

NYE was a slow one this year.. unlike all the previous years where I will get stuck in jam and people. Had a small bbq party this year in my dad's place with Midz, Siewharong, glenn, allen, ashie, chek, jamie, jamie's bf, robin, robin's bf and did i miss anyone? Had some havoc happened during bbq.. with midz dropping the tap head into the drain .. we started koreking the drain for it.. or i'll get big time boom by my dad. lol. Will update later with pics, not with me yet.

We had chicken DRUMSTICKS instead of wings, due to the lack of supply around melaka. *lol* we looked for the wings from tesco, to jusco, to pasar. *ish* we had tons of sausages, lamb, japanese sweet potatoes, fishes and best part of all, BROCOLLI! *lol*




*the brocolli

Had a few cam-whoring sessions with me n midz trying to rape Glenn but to no avail. *lol* there's even picture of midori trying to rape me but I guess that shud be kept low profile. My image is bad enough during nye.




We were trying to prove allen's bulu kaki.


Siewharong's curry chicken that turned curry devil ;)


and here presenting our very own mr. bollywood, ASHWIN!

We were burning stuff the whole evening... til late.. then we started to lazy-fied ourselves on the couch..started drinking the vodka that allen brought. the culprit of all things. From eve to eve.. it was that same vodka that brought me to the destruction of my image. ABSOLUTE VODKA.


*the culprit - evil of all evil

That's when I turned into a red lobster, the redest of 'em all.

*a cup filled with evil

MERRY X'MAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I know this is a belated and lembap-ed post. Blame my pc and my router, blame me not. I had a tummy-disturbing day today. Got up in the morning juz to end up in the toilet poopoo-ing twice and vomit three times. Had breakie and poo another time and poo-ed twice in office. Wanted to get the MC so badly, but hafta see customer in branch. By the time one by one of them wanting to see me, the clock ticks so fast that it was 1+ almost 2, MC? hang it.

I've got some lil' Singapore photos taken by Ashwin's cam during x'mas... yet to get the New Year Eve's photo, those are embarassing photos, not for eyes to see, seriously. Only donk donks will put the photos in their blog, if u know who I meant.. *hik* Only smart people do not put those photos to the public. heh! *big grin*



We had like so lil time in Singapore during X'mas.. gosh.. i need more photos to update you guys. Photos from Ashwinor not enuf coz he went from Melaka while me, glenn n pig from KL, which we experienced some kinda adventure in order to reach Singapore.



First bus air cond broke down in tangkak, stranded for 1 hour.. pics will be updated later. still with piggie. Then stopped in JB bus station and we hop on a public bus transport to go Singapore juz to be left by our bus at the immigration as we can't find the stop for us to board back the bus. *sweat* Finally we reached safe and sound with a CW2 bus.


Bugis aka Queen's Street .. where we stayed, in South East Asia Hotel :)

It was a seriously rushing trip, so many places to go and yet so lil time. *damn* Of course la not enough time, we spend more than half a day in Singapore Science Centre! but it was a really nice n interesting place. No, seriously it is!!!


*in front of the science centre



We went to Cityhall and had our bootiful dinner there with the waitress falling in love with Ashwin.. trying to fulfill all his needs. *ahem* Ashwin got so malu-fied that he blushed! and it was an obvious blush. *lol* Ashwin malu malu!



We had an enjoyable time in Orchard Road on X'mas eve. We 'smartly' followed piggie to the crowd side.. and we stood in front of a family.. literally a mum and few kids, thinking we are quite safe with that surrouding.. juz to find that this family carries a big bag of foam spray! And, guess what.. when they attack people, people attack them back.. and we are in between. Macam benteng pertahanan, yang suka rela. But again, without that, no fun also wat! =D IT WAS GREAT! and dead tiring. Siewharong that didn't wanna get dirty, juz couldnt avoid it having people like us around. We asked the kids behind us who are holding the foam spray to spray on her! PICTURES ARE WITH PIGGIE!!!!!








we sempat lagi wanna cam-whore in the midz of an attack!


and the best-est pic of all is SIEWHARONG UNDER ATTACK! wahahhaa.. u deserve it! lol. hide more and u get attacked more! :p

Back to the hotel... we slept in a weird direction, it was me, pig, glenn and allen. I really don't know how to show it here. if only i had pictures, esp. on how Allenor slept! *lol* He's being kung-fu kicked by piggie. Thank God me and glenn slept peacefully without being kung-fu kicked around. Allen tidor-ed like cacing kerepot! You should have seen!

On the last day, we went over to Cityhall again to have brunch and we headed back to hotel then. Coz our bus was like 1230! so early :( Then I saw something weird on the way walking to the bus station. FYI, we stayed in some religious area.. with temple situated next to our hotel and alot of stalls and shop selling Buddhist stuff. Okay.. now what i saw was.. a man seating down on the road.. with his stall .. and a bottle and some chinese writing stuff. The weird stuff is the thing in the bottle. IT WAS A BABY FETUS. i got so freak out and when i asked glenn.. he juz told me to walk. isk.

I told ya we stayed in some religious area!



Then back to KL.. as usual the life goes on till New Year's EVE!!! :)
BBQ all went alright.. but that will be in my next post. Some stupid dumb stuff.

Chaoz!

Fucking pissed

I didn't have my pc on for awhile due to craziness of it. And today it happens to work and i happen to go to the usual sites that I visit some time ago and I happen to see some topics which I am not pleased to see. I don't know why but I am fucking pissed, I AM. Over yet? Not too sure.

Damn.

The 'Bang'

I was on leave on last Friday. Thinking nothing much to do.. mights well juz go out n have a drink on thursday nite. It was after gym that i went for dinner with wee nee. Then back to her apartment coz she wanted to changed before meeting Nick and Daniel for yam char session in Bangsar. It was bout 12.15am when i drove out of Phase 5 of Pantai Hill Park. And went down the straight ONE WAY road. bout 40kph. Then, came this idiot who turned out from Phase 6 i think the place is.. without even bothering looking if there was a car coming. I wasn't able to break on time, adding to it, i was coming at 40 and it was a downslope and it was raining a lil bit, road was wet. Then... *BANG* there goes my baby saga. The fucked up lady driver driving the fucking stupid limited edition wira juz couldnt care less to stop and look! *damnit* Banged my right side headlamps and side lamps.. and dragged all the way to my door, next to me.And the idiot instead of straightening her wheels and reverse so that i can move front. She juz reversed without straightening and then bang more on my back door and side. FUCKING STUPID ISN'T SHE??? All i could do was to wind down the windows and talked to her. I TALKED, NOT SCREAMED. So not me 2 years back. I would have screened down and start screaming. She was like.. hey u were coming so fast.. bla bla.. and i was like..

"hello, miss, this is a straight 1 way road. No matter if i'm coming fast or
slow, u've gotta like look before turning out!" and she went like " hey, it's
not my fault. We go to the police station, fair k?"

in my mind, i was like.. this fler an idiot or wat? kinda obvious it was her fault. She wants the balai, the balai will be then.
We met at the balai after i waited for nick, daniel and richard to come over. Thank God they were there with me. Wee Nee and I were both like.. shite! wat the fuck juz happened.
We then met at the balai.. she started her report, den me. Then went up to see this sarjan.. Zamani was his name. She went in first n took like freaking long time, i guess to convince the sarjant that it wasn't her fault. What a dumb act of hers. After a long wait, my turn.
Sat down, he gave me 2 model cars which i laughed when i saw. Then, I started my story was of coz 1/4 of the ding dong's story. Finished my story in a few words. And chatted with the sarjant and another police fler next to me. First he asked if Daniel was my boyfriend as he stepped into the office with me, but got asked to go out. Then he said wanna check my tapak tangan, claiming he knows to see the lines on the hand. Which i juz open my palmed n shown him. He said, "Ni confirm la ada boyfriend" *wtf* Then he continued.... the convo as below,

Z : Muka cam latipah...
S : Har? Latipah? sapa? staff? *with my head looking around for
'latipah'*
Z : Takder la! ex-gf i.
S : Oh. *duh*
Z : U duduk kat mlk, kat ner?
S : Bkt Beruang.
Z : Oh, yaker? Latipah duduk kat Bkt Katil.
S : Oh.

We then all went down to go take a look at my car. And the fucking dumb girl decided to settle and pay me. stupid freak. Shud have like paid me earlier and settle on the spot instead of wasting my time coming to the police station rite. Damn, I've yet to meet ppl so dumb. Now she has to pay for my car, her car and the summon. DING DONG!
Btw, her car was wrecked! *lol* Oh ya, my car's damage was lesser than what the bang was. *lol* It isn't that bad. But hers???? wahahahahahaha. Whole bumper dropped down, the bottom of her car went inwards. Rough est. from Nick her car was like gonna cost bout 1K or more and I believe too. It is proven that old car is better than new ones. Mine kebal like kereta besi, hers like tin milo. That made me even reluctant to sell off my baby saga.

I'll be updating on Singapore later. Was a fun trip and ADVENTUROUS one, literally!

Hong Kong Dilemma

I finally got back my internet connection but my computer giving way. Guess it's on the way up to meet Jesus as well. argh. I got back from Hong Kong on the 10th of December. What a not-so-happening trip it was. The worst thing that happened was that my blardi camera actually went to up to meet Jesus first before my computer right there in China. The homeland of my camera. Stated "Made in China". THen I was using my sis's cam all the way with her new memory card. We happily took bout 1200 pictures.. juz to find that when we got back.. the pics are unable to be transfered to the pc. Which, I've yet to know the status of it til now. 10.52pm of 20th December 2006. So now, i'm sadly blogging without my PICTURES!!! OMG OMG OMG! i've got like tonnes of pictures to be uploaded here.. but now like.. freaking disappointed!!! damn.
Anyway, the whole HK thingy was a failure. A fucked and screwed up trip. We reached HK apprx 1130am on 6th december. The so called "free and easy" day wasn't that 'free' anyway. there's this optional tour that brought us to bout 3 places.. and cost us a lump sum of HK$360 = RM180. Looking at the huge amount of RM900 since there's 5 of us.. I asked d tour guide if I could take mrt around. Guess wat.. the smart bastards actually booked us a hotel practically at the end of the world. Walk out of the hotel.. and all u see is a small 7-11. Taxis? No. Buses? No. MRT? No. Fuck. So like it or not, pay the fucking RM900 n get on the 'optional' tour.
Given like 2 hours on ladies' street INCLUSIVE of lunch hour! we've practically got like 1 hour to walk the whole damn place. and it's a freaking long street. Ladies street is like only one of teh street tehre. argh. I'm so blardi pissed with the whole thing. The konon 'Lan Kwai Fong' where they brought us.. the mentioned that will bring us A-round Lan Kwai Fong. Which literally meant A-ROUND = 1 round. We went down the bus, took a walk AROUND lan kwai fong and brought us back to the bus. I was like WTF? might's well no need to bring us here. *gosh* Next day.. brought us to jade factory la, Tea factory la.. all those stupid fuckign places with overpriced goods.

Then we were on our way to Shenzhen. For a first timer in China, I have to say.. the roads there are pretty much KELAM KABUT. and drivers are very disrespectful of each other.. honking here and there with no reasons. And the cyclist there are the heroes around the road. Even the buses gotta be scared of them. *serious shit* But things are cheap there tho. But thanx to my dad who wants to get back to the hotel early.. we cannto shop. argh!!!!! I'm enough pissed, but i'm even more pissed when we actually had our own time but my dad screwed the whole thing up. Well, practically me and my sis were like freaking mad. Oh yeah.. forgot to mention about the 'free and easy' 3-hour thingy in shenzhen. same thing happend in Shenzhen as it happened in HK. this time was Renminbi240 = RM120. Juz for 3 hours of Windows of the World. Damn.

Spend 2 nites in shenzhen and moved to Disneyland on Saturday. Again.. we stopped by some tea and herb shop. finally reach disneyland at bout 11am. The place wasnt that huge anyway but the humans flooding the place. Gosh! like semut!berlambaklambak! we were included in the lambak tho. *lol*Only my family and another couple actually stayed a nite in the Hollywood hotel. Which we didn't actually knew it cost like RM1K per nite tehre. and the place is as dead as putrajaya. Imagine walking out of the hotel and all u see are trees! So much of a disneyland.

Spend another half a day in disneyland the next day.. and then we headed to the airport. And back to Malaysia. What a holiday.

Went to Genting last weekend. My dad's wish tho. He and his gambling habit. Me n my sis walk walk walk and walk and at the end.. spend money on shopping. Gosh. We practically didn't do anything in Genting but walk around and shop and got oursleves tired and be on bed. And go back the next day. ONly my dad was like in the casino from the time we reached til the time we went to bed.. he was stil in the casino. The next day when we got up.. my dad's not in the room d but in the casino. What a gambler my dad is. gosh.

Now I can't wait to go Singapore this saturdayyyyyyyyyyy. Blardi jakun man. First time in my life i'm going to singapore and my hometown is in Melaka.. which is practically 3-4 hours away only. I'm gonna celebrate Christmas there and I'm like freaking excited. Even more excited then when I was suppose to leave in HK. Guess it was the itenaries. is that how u spell? lol. *me england fail* I'll be on leave on Friday and the following tuesday! yay!

And now, i'm going to go yam char with nick, daniel and nick's fren. Tata Adios!

Post Burfdae!

I had a long weekend back in Melaka. Chilled out with Midz, Glenn, Allen, Ash, Siew Lin, Gary, Chee Wee and Jamie at Pak Putra while telan-ing our pizza naan, potato naan, tandoori chicky and some other stuff. Celebrated my burfdae at home. No fotos taken but only a video. My dad had this *kepala angin* thing and wanted to get a camcorder to be brought to Hong Kong. Oh yeah, I'm flying off to HK this wed.. *excited* We'll be picked from our home at 4AM!!! Our flight is scheduled at 8am.. guess gona reach HK in like 5-6 hours.. i duno. nv been anywhere near there! Gonna hang out in Disneyland HK.. which i believe half the day will be spend on queueing up! Bad time to go to HK. den.. some parts of HK and Shenzen... places like that. Will be updating with photos later when I land back in Malaysia! :)

By the way, I had a lil' celebration today at MidValley with my ex-colleagues from KGC.. my bebudakbudak. *happy* We had a makan in All Star. Wanted to land our bontots in Pasar Ikan Manhattan but we were informed by the waiter that there's these bunch of kids who have done reservation! kids nowadays.. have realy really high taste.. and loaded too. *back then I only know KFC and McD, not even BK!* I had my chicken tachos there in All Star.. RM22 and tak sedap! *eik* Ryan who wanted to FFK couldnt do much coz the location is opposite his beloved RAM office. *lol* Thanx Theng, Az and Shannie that came for me! :) *sayang*

These are my pressies that I've got! From left to right.. greenie baggie from Amber and Datuk Az, Hershey's dark choco from Siew Lin and Gary, Bearie bear with 2 candies from Shannie and Ryan Dennis Pestana, and my brownie brownie stone cold steve austin baggie bag from Midz, Glenn, Ash, errr..allen? I hafta clarify with Midz again. *lol* Thanx yawl for the gifts! :) Another 2 gifts I accidentally left in Melaka. From my aunt and my adik! A shirt and a penguin!

The Mafias of ex-KGC. Ryan, me, Theng theng, Dtk Az and Shannie.

Mr. Blogger got kinda stucked again. Uploaded fotos but nothing came out. So, i pending here for loading of flickr. And these are the results.

This happens when u have camera along with you and beautiful x'mas deco everywhere! *pweety*

The artistic piece of art from Ryan Dennis Pestana

The box that Ryan and Shannie used to kidnap the bear!
Ryan stealing back his gift!

And *cheng cheng cheng* couple of the year! :)

I juz done my packing for HK and gonna be dozzing off on my thinning mattress.

Nitty nites! *zzz*

23

I'm a year older! I'm 23 already! argh... feeling old already.

Happy Birthday to me tho. :p

Thanx yawl for the gifts!! :)

Happy Birthday Amelia!

That's the burfdae girl! And I can't believe it that it has been a year already! that pic was taken during her 22nd burfdae last year! and it's freaking 1 year? lol. time flies really fast.

Happy Burfdae to you, Happy Burfdae to you, Happy Burfdae to Melia, Happy
Burfdae to you! Happy Burdae to you, you were born in the zoo, with the monkeys
and kangaroos, happy burfdae to you!

The pic taken was in TGIF, Jalan Sultan Ismail. *nyum nyum*.. so long nv yak in tgif. Case tarak 'lui'... aka vitamin M.

And this is amelia caught standing ON the chair while the TGIF people sing n cheer n hentak kaki on the floor. haha.. malu melia. but nvm la. we sukak! Melia.. the one melia was holding the duno wat the thing is to give speech.. no pics la! oni got video. tak sempat wanna upload to you tube! haha.

Anyways melia, have a great birthday!

Happy Happy Merry Birthday! *muacks muacks huggies huggies*

PEEKABOO !

Just thought of posting up few pics before I get my ass into the bathroom and get myself scrubed! *lol*


Winter Wonderland

Winter wonderland.... did by Midori aka budak jepun. Midori's the girl kepit-ed between me n siewharong. *ops* i meant.. ong siew har aka sotong epal. Blurest chick u ever get. *lol*
We were having our yam char session in Asian Havana the other time.. but juz got the urge to post it up now. lol. sori midz.

This pulak me n my sister. eeerrr.. again.. juz some kinda urge. *lol*

Erhm... that's practically me n my sis cam-whoring AGAIN. guess it's a hobby we both share. But the cut n paste thingy is done by her! The bluish curtain is my room in kl!

Other 2 lines of pics are in mlk :) i miss mlk. suppose to b there in melaka now.. n attending the LYN gathering tonite. :(


*Hehe* Some genting pics, some kancil car pics, some beddie pics n some poyo pics. oh ya.. n my the stupid pig's in too. lol.

Piggy Ong is it's name and 'she' possess a Malaysian IC too but buatan bkt beruang by my sis. Weird sis i've got uh? Piggy's just ONE of her babies at home. i lost count. Perhaps Piggy has about another 14-15 sisters? *lol*

Okay! that's it! time to bathe and go for baby Anushri's 1-yr-old burfdae! =D

This Sux!

Computer's still crazy, work still sucks as usual and i've got like loads to study with loads of exams. Which part of em dont suck? argh

Good Nite.

Yeah, i'm a lil cranky.

Some Random Post

Some random pics to prove my boredom which am trying hard to kill. Posting from the lembap pc of my sis' in melaka. The new and non-performing pc of hers. lol! thus, lack of dumb photos to load.

My kudos cuzzies! Mr Pretty Ivan, his sis Michelle, Becky and my donk donk sis. We were in our relative house at the beach in Melaka.. nice sun set view at the back but with horrible camera photo quality.


My sis jiak pa boh min kia cho... did this piece of 'art'. Juz a random pic.


Juz another lapuk random pic of 2 poyo flers cam-whoring in the car.


A pucat ghostly pic taken in Renaissance Hotel during Uncle James' 60th Burfdae Party. Don't know why it came out that way.. Scary tho.


My uncle bergaya posing with his 'nightlife' baju while enjoying his meal. This is my uncle which all my friends will never understand what he's trying to say except Danny.. lol.. his claimed good friend. lol. Just a random pic.


Another random lapuk pic of my sis in Genting. Posing with a semi-naked statue. The status seems to be saying, " look at me, dont u think I'm beautiful?"
And that was the hair which i commented as tempurung. lol. =X

End of posting and prepartion of going back to KL. argh. =(

And I Don't Know Myself

I did something which I myself dont know if its right or not yesterday. It made me feel happier, it made me feel cared for. But somehow, I feel it's not really right. But if I listen to my heart, I don't feel anything is really wrong with it. You know.. my brain and my heart is contradicting. That's what I've being told and I felt it was true.

What if you had somebody which practically don't mean a thing? What if you had somebody who you call yours but its not really yours? What if you had somebody that you call yours when all the person does is to hurt you more and more?

It's either I stumble and fall again or I just go on as how life will be.

A lost soul with a disturbed mind in search of peace and beauty of life. Heal me, guide me. I need God.

Hate Entry

I hate him.

I hate where he led me to.

I hate all that happenned.

I hate how you make me felt.

I hate you.

I hate myself.

Empty

Why do I feel so empty today? Why do I feel so useless today? I felt so freaking down today. I don't know what I'm doing in my life. I feel it's so empty n meaningless. It seems like i'm living my days for the sake of living it. I work just becoz I need to earn the money to go on with life. I go to work, I come back, I go to gym and sometimes with friends. That's pretty much with my life. Every morning waking up.. and every nite before going to bed.. feeling and hating the next day coz it's a fucking working day n I gotta blardi see the idiotic customers who gives nothing but problems. Why can't I land myself in a place that I wanna be? Think it's fun switching job? Think it's fun adapting to new things? No, I dont enjoy doing all those. I envy some of my friends with proper job and not having that dreadful feeling everytime they go to work.

AND SOME PEOPLE FUCKING THINKS THAT MY LIFE IS BLARDI SMOOTH AND IT'S ALL BOUT MYSELF. And I have an attitude that someone can't forgive. DO you really think I can forgive yours too? You dont know anything bout wha'ts my life about. You don't know how I feel, you don't know bout my past expereinces. You dont go tru wat i went tru, you dont have to face thigns that I face, thus, u feel life is how u take it, life is easy. That's cause u have not seen the world. You've not seen the problems people face. Everybody is brought to this world with different fates written in front of them. Different people see different kind of worlds. I want things to be back as how it used to be, but I know its impossible. You hate me now. I hate you too. I just dont know what you want. I don't know what happenned, what's happening and what's gonna happen.

I thought I've already got a bad day, feeling miserably horrible. Till, I finally managed to come online, just to speak to someone who just made my day went worst. Think could go to bed in this situation? fuck it.

FRIENDS

I've got a mail from Amelia.. well I don't know when but I just checked it today. It contains pictures with quotes on friends.

And I felt this is true.. this pic on the left.. well.. the quote is.. very true. Life's rule no. 1, You are never too busy to keep in touch with an old friend. Maybe this is only being absorbed by certain friends of mine and on the other hand certain people would just ignore despite of them not even being busy. Those arent what I call true friends. Have 'em or loose 'em, I now feel it doesn't make a difference. What's important is who you have around you now and who you know is a treasure that you found and that you know you must not let go.

And I believe those people who falls under both of the categories knows who they are. :)

I kinda like this one too. Not just the words but the picture too. :) But I guess the girl on the right side accidentally closed her eyes. Childrens are cute, aren't they? I dunno what's wrong with Mien. :X haha.

Kill me mien, I know you want to. :p





And I liked this one too!
But somehow, the 2 pictures looks more like a United Colors of Benetton ad. to me. haha.

*Friends are my treasure and you guys know who you guys are and I treasure
yawl alot*

Thanx peeps for all the good times we had. :D
*muacks muacks muacks + bonus huggies*

Life, A Series of Drama

Don't you think life's a drama? or will it be more like a game, is it how u play it? I personally think that life's a set of drama that sometimes fall in our control but most of the time it does not. It's way out of our control. We think that we are capable of controlling it but the fact is that we failed to control it and we do not wanna admit our mistakes. We sometimes think that we are strong freaks living in our own world and that we are in control of our lives. No, we are not.

When you think that you are doing the right thing, it turns out to be wrong. When you think you're with the right person, it turns out to be so wrong. When you think you've stepped your foot into somewhere right, it turns out to be somewhere you do not wanna be at too. At times, we just take for granted on what gonna happen in the future and we only care bout what is now. That's when the phrase comes, enjoy now, suffer later.

Life, for me, has been a complete set of drama with ups and downs, with tears and laughter, with happiness and pains. The first phase of my life, the childhood life which was pretty much perfect with a dad and mum ruined when my mum passed away in 1991 when i was only bout 7+. The end of chapter 1. And my life moved on living with my both aunties and I am grateful to say that I have them. Without them, I don't know really where will I be now. And life went on till I finally ended Std6. That's the end of another chapter and the beginning of a whole new chapter.

I got into SMBB which I practically hated coz my dad was there. Finally gotten myself into St. David's High which I was really delighted but I was thrown into the 10th class. FYI, there was bout 12 classes of form1 in my sch last time. There was like... berlambak students. I was moved to the 3rd class coz 1st n 2nd class is fully occupied by straight As students. And things went on happily and in form4 we had the floating class. It practically means we do not have a class. All we do is hop n jump to empty classes to have our class. It's fun actually. :) and then came the SPM year which i practically had LOTS of fun. I played truant, i ran out from school, i fought with teachers, i fought with SU KIN. lol. I was so carefree and there's nothing for me to worry and think about. Relationship at that time? Never even came to my mind. Till SPM is over, that's the end of the high school chapter.

Studies in MMU was quite fun too with my bunch of frenz, pig, tat, melia, mien. :) we did crazy stuff, we sang BSB song al the way back from Auyin Hill. I know it sounds pathetic, but seriously it was fun. It was the company that playes the major role. :) I finally graduated and that was the end of my uni life.

And bam, I got into the fucking working life. A beginning of a bumpy journey which I'm still fighting in now. A journey that's so bumpy that I couldnt even find a proper highway for me to get on! And after all these chapters and being at this stage now, I feel so useless and pissed with my life. I thought of my life in alot of aspects, from family to work to relationship. And I dont find any of them i ever had a smooth journey before. I really wished that I could turn back the clock and I wanna be in high school forever. I miss the life back then bcoz I dont feel burden on my back, i dont feel pressure on myself that I have to do something with my life.

But I've decided to put things behind me. To put all the failure and all the memories that breaks me down behind me. I will proceed with my life and what's over is over. I have to fucking get on my gears and look at the better future. I don't wanna be hanging and clinging over the clift unsure if I'll fall down or someone will save me. I have to save myself because I know, there's no one there to save me.

LYN Malaccans V.7



The above pic taken in the new McD at Padang Pahlawan.. the newly build shit la. The pic from left to right.. me, kamwah, kels, alilmisfit, baoz and david.

a lil misfit @ adam con me and made me believed that he IS adam and thanx to the others i really thought he was til the end of the gathering. Thank God kels informed me. bolo mia misfit. jaga jaga engkau. beta shall never let u go! argh!

Kocek Kosong

Today's a holiday for Selangor state, so wat i practically did was stay home whole day. coz all of my friends are working. hrmf. They all somehow fall under KL. argh.

I thought since I had time today, why not go do my car tire's alignment and balancing. And guess what? the bill came up to RM666.25. The bill is as evil as the number. damn. Now, i'm officially declared bankrupt for the month. Rob me and you'll cry. Coz, i'm living on overdraft! I'm owing the bank now. damnit.

These are the breakdowns of the damn charges

• Alignment RM15
• Camber both side RM90
• Balancing RM20
• Brake Lining/plate RM60
• Driveshaft RM160
• Gear Oil RM35
• 2 pcs.. cant read the writtin RM280
• service tax 6.25
• total = RM666.25

blardi evil. Now my pocket got lubang d. damn. Car's a liability damnit. And my blardi sales are still pending with HQ's approval.

Damn, i need money. Anybody knows of anywhere dat need partimers on sat n sun? :(

I'm officially broke.

DAMN!

What if ...

I have crazy thoughts sometimes that can be really.. erhm....... crazy.

I was thinking to myself last Friday...

Each and everytime I make my trip back to my homie Melaka, I'll give my grandma a call to inform her that I'll drop by before I go home to my house in Bkt Beruang. And she'll go prepare dinner for me and sometimes for my frenz who are following my car as well. Just that last Friday, after speaking to my grandma over the telephone, I had this gush of feelings.

I was thinking to myself.. what if I never ever reached her house that night? What if something struck me along the highway and I was never able to make my way home? I was thinking and I couldn't imagine the pain they will go through if it happens.

Imagine cooking dinner for your grandchild and the next thing u know, she'll never come back for your dinner anymore. I duno why.. but I kinda sad when I had this thinking.

I told you I can have crazy thoughts sometimes.

Am I crazy?

Piggie's Burfdae

Today's another Monday that's painted in blue colour again, perhaps somewhere lighter then dark blue. Weekend was a good one coz got 2 donk donk frenz of mine up in KL. :D It was to celebrate Piggie's burfdae. These were the list of things we did :

• Lepaked at Laundry Bar with the rest
• Picked 'That' from her office in Yap Kwan Seng
• Picked Melia from Pudu
• Went parking hunting in Mid Valley
• Sang out throat out in My KTV from 2pm - 6pm
• Walk around Mid Valley
• Shoot to Jln Ampang for Mexican food, Les Carretas on Piggie, hehe
• Went to Friendster cafe that provide one of the worst drinks at the most unreasonable price. Highly NOT RECOMMENDED.
• Next day.. me n melia went Matta Fair n i booked my room for singapore trip :) and i got blardi molested in the fucking matta fair.
• and below are the fotos taken during the weekend

From left to right; Piggie, Me, Amelia and Tat erhm.. and the photographer is Jet. lol. This was the poor room that gotta absorb all of our Malaysian Idol voices. You should hear Pig sing.. she's the like the best singer in the world.. especially when she sings Siti Nurhaliza's songs. *pengsan*

That's Me and the Burfdae girl doing some muka.

This is the Les Carretas Mexican Restaurant, Piggie with her lamb shank, Tat with her somethign pizza, Jet with his.. i forgot wat thing.. but it was a wrap, me with me beef/mutton.. i forgot wat i ordered and melia with her fagitas.

This is in Friendster Cafe that I mentioned earlier to be overpriced and serving horrible drinks. I ordered a Hot Choco at RM10.50 and it doesnt even taste a single bit like Starbucks' hot choc. I think my own mixed Milo would taste alot better. Seriously, it's damn damn cair. Not just mine, amelia's Americano has the 'cheap' coffee taste. Seriously. Again, i stress this, this cafe is HIGHLY NOT RECOMMENDED!

These are some fotos during my training with the other HLBB colleagues. It's a lil bit outdated coz i only posting it now. That's coz Ms. Busy Me got no time to transfer the pics into my pc la. From left to right, Ahmad from Internal Audit, Belle from Operations of Bangsar Baru branch, Angie from Ong Kim Wee Mlk branch, Stella from Taman Putra Ampang, Penny from Muar branch, Lai Kuan from Ipoh, and below is Yang , EMS from Kinrara and finally Connie from Greentown branch. All are PFC except Yang and Ahmad.

This was our last day during training. We had our lunch in Wisma KFC and obviously we had KFC. And Mr. Hii King Hui kept taking fotos of all of us. Nothing better to do.

Us in front of Wisma Hong Leong with the mini-fountain splashing it's water on us.

Raine, Penny, Angie, Stella, Connie and Ayumi

5 siao pohs in Bkt Bintang after consuming Lecka-Lecka. As usual the fotographer will be Mr. Onizuka Hii King Hui

I know this pic is super outdated. haha.. live with it. Taken during Convo 06 in MMU Cyber. Me kay poh there as usual :) it's a good thing anyway. It was a convo for Su Kin, Hsin Ser, Soon Hup and Chee Kiat. Others in the pic tumpang glamour oni. :) inclusive of me. Those convo flers are my close frens during high school days :)

This is Cik. Mien that FFK me for the Karaoke session for Piggie's burfdae celebration. Leaving her IC with her dearie Jason.*double pengsan*

Always FFK me mia. ish ish! One day gona kena from us d.

That's all folks for the day!

:: Me dUn wAnnA wOrK ::

Me have been lazy-ing at homie for the past 4 days. Let me see what Have i been up to

• Seeing the doc
• Going for Physiotherapy daily
• Watch tv
• Makan
• Having Glennie, Allenor, Ass n Mr. Herbalife visit me n my spine

Finally after 4 days at home.. I drove back to KL today.. with so much of distrations on the highway. damn.. the highway is under repair like.. FOREVER. in the day worst.. they close the road here n there.. n the blardi lorry drivers drive like it's their grandfather's road. fuckers! I nearly bang into a lorry earlier thanx to the bastard who juz simply cut into my lane without realising i'm coming at 110 kph making my handbag n stuff fly onto the air *fucking bastard* Morons like that causes accidents on the highway everyday. damnit.

I reached Sheraton Subang at bout 1.30pm and registered myself as applicant and only got my interview at 4pm. Geez.. long wait. The interviewer was a nice indian lady.. hrmf.. well.. i don't know if she's nice enough to give me the job tho. lol.

Well, I AM BORED. I WANNA GO BACK MELAKA. :(

Slipped-Disc *spelling mistake*

And so I thought this wil be a usual weekend for me in melaka. Till Sunday morning, when i got all dressed up to meet amelia in MP, I got a hit on the lower part of my spine. Damn. Was painful but it was bearable.. i thought it was nothing much and just a small twist on my back.. so happily i can still go to MP.. n meet up with amelia.. till i felt kinda pain when i was in Coffee Bean.. Then, my rescuer came.. WEI SHUN! She called out of no where.. enquiring on my location. and so, i told the problem to her... and she recommended me Dr. Yong, a singseh in Melaka Raya. Went over there..n waited like damn long. imagine the clinic, got numbering. meaning to say.. i was at number 26 n display is oni number 14. That many patients they have. So, my turn finally came.. den doc touch jer den told my urat lari.. den went behind n got this blind malay man.. he urut my back.. sampai i terjerit jerit kesakitan.. den after a whole long term of suffering... they did acupunture on me. using the botol botl to suck my back. and til now i still have the bulat signs on my back. argh.

Next morning, i was stil in pain. when i decided to actually go consult a specialist, an ortopedric.. how the heck to spell dat? -the bone specialist. he told me dat i'm having a slip disc. Now, people will start asking me wat's a slipdisc? argh. It's the spine... where the spine is made up of a series of bones.. between the bones, there will be some sorta 'cushion' in order to elakkan geseran between the bones.. and the 'cushion' on my 4th bone of my spine, ran out of position and is hitting towards my nerve. Doctor then told me to go for physiotherapy. I felt like a sick idiot. My first day of physiotherapy.. i was given an ultrasound treatment and then some infra-duno-wat thingy.. den next was traction. It's where my body is being tied tightly to the board/bed i was lyin on .. and the thing that was tying me is conected to a machine. The machine will pull and pull and pull.. the function is to straighten my spine. when it was pulling, i dont feel much pain.. juz felt like being pulled. then, the 20 minutes of pulling is over, the terapist came.. and she realeased me from the thing.. and thats when my body kinda like dropped on the bed.. and that's when i felt 1 blardi sharp pain.. well.. pain enuf to make me drop tears. The terapist seeing me in such pain, took out the traction part for me for the following days. I didnt the ultrasound and the infra thingy.. till today.. today i m feeling a lil better.. i m not sure if it's coz of the therapy or is it coz of the pain killer? hrmf.

Tmr i hafta drive back to KL with this blardi pain in my back. :( and to attend a walk-in intervew in sheraton subang.. anyfurther ah? Thanx to Glenn. lol. but it's a marketing executive position. a post that i was looking for. :) not blardi sales exec. :)

Anyway, wish me luck on my journey tomorrow!

Adios!

Weeeeeeee.........

I had a great weekend! :)

• I clubbed on Thursday in Rum Jungle
• Makan-ed 'dai-lok-min' in Petaling Street
• Went shopping in 1 Utama on Saturday
• Had dinner in Italianies
• Clubbed in Thai Club
• Slept over in Crown Regency
• Got up at 12pm n went out at 3pm to Jaya
• Shopped in Jaya and went to Sunway
• Waited almost an hour to be fed in Yuen Steamboat opposite Sunway Pyramid
• Laughed til my tummy burst thanx to Mr. Akinozawa Hii. lol.

Sadly, the training ending on Wednesday. meaning to say, Wed is the last day for me to see all of 'em :( sad sialz!!!!!! it was fun la this training thing. Get to meet so many new frenz :)

Training 6-9-2006

Additional head-crashing info -

• Islamic mortgage loan and Calculation
• Islamic Letter of Offer
• Conventional Mortgage Loan Letter of Offer
• Reading of Title(geran), Sales & Purchase Agreement, Letter of Offer
• Credit Card types and sales

That's only today. Have not even include wat i absorbed yesterday. Gosh, i'm running out of space in mind! Going to club with the other consultants tomorrow. lol. budak budak HLBB ni.. memang nakal semacam. lol. Tmr is another day of full training. Pengsan. Budak tepi aku.. namanya, Yang.. he tido like nobody's business. lol. den can wake up n inform me dat he slept off. lol. Was like blardi obvious. haha.. but farnee fler la. kept me entertained during the boring lectures. lol. I am seated in between an ex-budak HSBC and ex-budak OCBC. All da traitors. lol. Siap Yang using HSBC pen. lol. nasib i tak pakai KMDC pen. whaah..

Life is alright as I am concern now. Hopefully all turns well and i make lotz n lotz of cash here. :D

Training

Today Stella started her training in the HQ in Jalan Perak, KL together-gether with the other Personal Financial Consultants(PFC) and the Executive Mortgage Sales(EMS) people. I get to meet loads n load n lotttttttttttttts of people all over Malaysia. The PFCs come from all over.. sabah, sarawak, kedah, penang, johor, melaka.. lol. :) It was quite a fun experience I can say. It was obviously kinda weird in the beginning n like so damn kekok coz like duno anybody. But, to my suprise, Tze Lay is also a PFC! She flew all the way from Sarawak! Tze Lay is my ex coursemate. :) Went around and made frenz with a number of 'em. :) But frankly, I forgot some of their names, the chinese names.. it takes quite alot of 'ram' in my head to remember all the names in like less den 5 minz? lol. i guess 10 days will do good in remember em. :)

Today's training is bout work ethic, dress code, vision n mission.. bla bla.. history. I nearly fell asleep. Guess, i doze off at some point. lol. A 2-3 second head knock down .. like how the jet plane goes up n down.. there's how my head went for awhile during Bryan's training. lol. But Raj was farnee, farnee trainer.. from the BPO division doing AMLA. The 3rd trainer today.. Mr. Low i think.. i forgot :X he was kinda boring too.. but it became interesting when he started to talk n how to identify the cheques. Lol. at least somethign in my job scope that I need to know. :)

Tmr's the beginning of the real hard core training. Today was juz a mild introduction of HLBB. Tmr is the start of mortgage sales. Here comes the leasehold, freehold, conventional, islamic.. bla bla bla that will come bombarding to my head. Need to add extra 'ram' into my brain tonite. Need some installation to be done. I wish i was stayin in the Crown regency with the other outstation PFCs. i bet they had fun in the apartments. :( further to add, do not need to get stucked inthe blardi jam of KL early in the morning. Damn. If i would have stayed there, i could juz get up for work at 8.15 n b in office by 8.45. syoknya. The fucking jam in Jalan Ampang was killing this morning. I left home at 730am. I reached the turn off from MRR2 into jalan Ampang at 8am. and the short distance took me like almost 45 minutes from jln ampang to HQ. Damn!

Today after al the training.. Dr. X, i forgot his name.. paiseh.. the Head of Training gave a short briefing to us new PFCs. He asked bout our background n where we came from and all. When it was my turn, i told i used to be a sales and marketing executive. The convo went like that :

Dr. X : What were u doing before this?
me : I was a sales and marketing exec.
Dr. X : Wat were u selling?
me : I was selling training programmes to corporate clients.
Dr. X : Oh! Which company?
me : KDU Management Development Centre
Dr. X : Ooooooooohhhhhhh!!! Ms. MIEN!!! Mien is a nice lady! Why did you left her company?(laughing)
me : Yeah, Mien is a nice person but the problem is the manager that I'm reporting to is not nice. (cheeky smile)
Dr. X : (laughing) Mien juz changed her corporate look right? She juz took a new snapshot for her new bulletin!!! am i right?
me : Yeah, she did (laughing)
Dr. X : I gonna tease her.

Gosh.. he knows mien! and to add to that, he even know another PFC's secondary school's headmistress! and she is from Muar! gosh.. and he actually admited that he knows alot of ppl. Best part, he even said.. i might even know your parents. then he laugh away. lol. Farnee HOD i must say. but seems like a nice person. :)

HLBB isn't that bad afterall. :) starting to like it bit by bit. :) will learn to like wat i'm doing and learn to make money out of it. :D

Jiwang Attack

Some songs just bring out the jiwang in you. Phrases like;

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I wondering what you are dreaming
Wondering if it's me you are seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever

I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing

I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

You're My Survival, You're My Living Proof

When I look at you, I see something rare, a rose that can grow anywhere. There's no one that I know that can compare. What makes you different, makes you beautiful.

Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you


Now tell me. How to not feel jiwang when u have lyrics like these? Fyi, me damn emo n fucking sensitive. Explains it all?